Wrong decisions
Tuesday, February 9, 2010 | 3:27 AM | 0 comments
Maybe Im the one at fault, but even it is so, you hold a higher percentage.You did something, and to a girl, it is very shameless, especially if someone actually saw it.
If someONE saw it, that means there may be a lot of other people who saw it too.
This spells embarrassing.
You even commented on what you actually did. And please, Im damn bloody pissed.
somehow in my life, the only one who can make me damn pissed is you. You won the I-Can-Make-Alyssa-Pissed Award, are you happy?
Then the next day, in the morning you asked me if I was still angry at you because of what you did, are you trying to say you actually DID do that ?
Then later, you denied all of it. You claim you use the water bottle. Ok, fine, if it is so, then your water bottle is magical, it can help you feel. It can bend easily so that you know whether it's hard or soft. Wow, please buy me one of those bottles one day. Then when i go to the mattress store, I dont have to sit on it, I just use the bottle and FEEL it.
Please, a water bottle cannot bend in all shapes to help you feel, so how do you explain all of these ?
You started a drama, you said a lot of bad things, HAH, Guess what? I wasnt that pissed. Why? cause it was expected of you. You let your feelings take over you. (That's your own lost.) When you are angry, you just spit everything on your mind out. I heard everything you said, I didnt like it, yeah, but I was nice enough to not start a bigger drama, a bigger problem. And sides, I didnt take all those to heart, cause you aint any better. No one's perfect, I know im not. You can criticise your friend here and there, talk to them, but if someone else did what you did today, it wont affect other people, but it brings harm to them only, just like bringing harm to yourself. You're luring trouble to yourself. People who do good deeds will get back what they deserve(in a good way), but people who did bad deeds, well, you know what'll happen. It's just a matter of time, Patience it the key.
I dont need anything, I dont ask for anything in life, but I really wish to have friends. Cause without them, I feel empty, like a loner. So Im asking you, please dont contaminate their minds, and slowly take them away from me. Cause one of them said today that they dont trust the person who saw what happened, she trusts you instead. I kinda find it unbelievable. Well, I guess people are just different. Although it's normal that people dont understand other people, but it just hurts a lot doesnt it ?
I dont know what to do, Im feeling extremely sad, my heart is sinking. What should I do? Im lost in the darkness of my own world. It's so scary, so dark, so cold. No one's with me. Just evil. Oh, God, I pray and pray and pray that you bring light back into my life, make me feel safe. please.
Many of my wrong decisions brought me to where I am today. I wish I could go back in time to the day I made the first wrong decision, and make the right one instead. maybe things wouldnt have been like this.